My brain.

"I'm not scared anymore.

I'm prepared. 

I'm not young any more.

I'm armed.

I'm not thoughtful any more.

I'm blunt.

I'm not your perfect anymore.

I'm me."

THIS is what my brain is right now. This is how it is thinking. This is how it wants to be. Every time I have a deep conversation, either while digging up the past or discussing the future, I tend to start hallucinating (okay, not exactly). I think deeper. I think to myself. There seems to be a river in my head, with some sort of thought flow I never want to get rid of. I always want to be THAT person I just spoke about and not in phases. I don't want to read a book or blog and change my life. I don't want to watch a movie and implement the decisions made by the actors in it in my life. I always want to be one person. I always want to have this shade of happy around. It's spectacular. Happiness.